_{I've never felt like this before. I hope I never feel or experience it again after today. Today is going to feel like eternity. Time just couldn't be any more cruel.}


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Not much to update, really.
Game against my school's rival is the 5th.
I'm playing in that game on the allstars team.
School's gotten more demanding. I hate it.
My muse is back, and I'm writing more for the time being.
But I need this block to go away so I can finish the last sketch request.
I'm an emotional wreck.
It won't really show until I've nearly hit breaking point.
I've been slowly deteriorating since last Sunday.
I cried in class two days later.
I rarely cry in school, let alone during a class, anymore if ever since middle school,
two years of my life that I never want to relive ever again.
I have communication issues.
How people manage to put up with me, I'll never fully understand.
But I'm grateful. So grateful.
I'm so tired, but I can't sleep.
Fear of the possibility is keeping me awake.
But, that might not be so bad.
I have a paper to write, so maybe it won't be wasted time.
I have to study for all my classes, so maybe it wont be wasted time.
There's so much potential...but it's about to go all to waste.

"The End is near by, but you who have known love will be all right." -Kowarete Iku Sekai [Girugamesh]


I like the one that breaks, yet the ones that break my heart I love so dearly.

The day was full of misery. Slept around 4-5ish AM...had to be up at 7AM for church.
Felt so apathetic... I'm sorry to those who dealt with me today.
On the upside though, I feel so relieved and this happiness is unexplainable.
Yet, at the same time, the disappointment.
_{If you've lost interest, just say so, damn it.
Don't keep leading me on. You kept me hoping for nothing, apparently.
I already did you a favor by not pushing you towards a decision.
Now, though... The games really start.}
Bah...it's late. I have a paper to finish. I'm almost there.
I'll say this again and again,
I don't, won't and can't hate you.
I just can't bring myself to do that, ever.
<sub>I'll always love you.
Death can't even change my mind.
I'll give my all to save you if it came down to that.
Goodnight/morning to you all.




...the ones I adore!</sub>